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Saturday, December 30, 2006

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 01:00:26 GMT

It gets really boring here at home.

No seriously, i haven't been out of the house
for anything except for band in the past week.
Man...some days it just fucking gets to me.
Because i'm here at home almost all day...
sometimes there's no one to talk to, nothing to
keep me busy...so what do i do? Sleep. Yeah.
I get about 12-18 hours of sleep max. Seriously.
On a bad day, maybe 8...and when i'm awake
nobody is home, no one's in town, and everyone who is
is either too tamad or busy with other shit. kinda
sucks that i can't do much about it.

Yeah well, some days it's good to just sleep
and get that stress out of my system that, believe
it or not, is still kinda there from hell week. But
its alright, sleep is good. This lack of activity
is making feel so damn fat BUT SCREW IT
the scale begs to differ. WOOT. i love it. I mean
hell, as i'm writing this, i'm consuming a bar of
hershey's....the big bar of chocolate! AHHHH
so much food, so little activity. Well at least now
im well rested. Then time's gonna come when its
time to get back out and do shit...sana naman thats
sooner than later.

yes, i am dying here.

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BAND FEST VIDEOS ARE UP PEOPLE

check the multiplication of serve chilled
and see the nice new videos of ours.

note:

there is commentary by pat's dad
(who took the video) and that there's
a lot of ramble courtesy of peter. and another
thing, whenever pat's dad poses a question
peter somehow answers it, even if they are a good
hundred something meters away.

its funny.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 02:33:11 GMT

Haven't had much time to blog lately but now.....
At long last, imma gonna write at long last.

i want to say that its been a pretty nice
Christmas. seriously nice, but you know
it's not the same anymore for me. i mean
yeah, its a special time but its not as special.
like most of the magic is gone...but there's
a little happiness still there. but like...on
Christmas night, i just felt pretty damn lonely.
and yeah, its like that. but hell, a little champagne
and good food fixed that up a bit.
but you know...cold and lonely Christmases aren't fun.
but there's a lot of family time that helped fix
that up...gift haul was the usual; bunch a shirts
few accessories, and weird gifts from people who
still think im 9. seriously...haha. but its all good.
i don't really mind that.

---

good news

good news first.
Serve Chilled will be playing at
the Xavier Vari and ICA Prom.
2 shows that we're looking forward to
because they're gonna be good shows
(we hope). We're already working on
special material for ICA prom...so
if anyone reading this is gonna be there,
expect something special...something
outside of the usual Serve Chilled repertoire.

and as for Vari...just expect something...
as in...something .

and on a personal note...
i'm getting a new crash to replace the one
i cracked a few months ago. weee! yay.

---

2007 looks inviting.
so damn inviting.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 01:04:51 GMT

haven't blogged in a long while.

well hell week is over
but the pains of hell week are being felt now.

yeah well it started friday with what i initially
thought was a little morning grogginess at
about 6:30 developed into a full blown fever at
about 8, which was in the middle of the mass.
its really really bad. now that fever developed
through the rest of the weekend.

come saturday...there were 3 auditions.
AC, Vari and ICA prom auds...each of which
were in different venues. and doing each with
a 38+ fever. at about 12 something..found myself
in AC with very coveted chicken nuggets. well
all the band aids wanted it because they hadn't eaten
lunch and they were all waiting up on their chicken nuggets.
i swear, when girls are hungry for chicken nuggets...
i'd rather not explain. but its funny. really amusing.
xavier auds were pretty fun...ms. leobrera and mr. asis
este buff guy who sings high school musical were judging us.
in spite of the obvious bias that they have for Serve Chilled...
they had a lot of criticism for us...not really as a whole
but more on just...Peter. ICA was a lot less pressed for time.
We just showed up, played and did our thing. if it wasn't for
the very frequent coughing spells involving blood...my day
would have been alright

all in all, the auds were just okay...
its just when you have a fever and you try and play as hard
as i do, you get tired in the middle of songs, lose a lot of control
and find it just so much harder to play at performance level.
i mean there's only so much you can do when you're
body is burning up, head is somewhere else, and your
legs feel like jell-o. it sucks when you want to play a really
great short set in front of a bunch of people you don't know
(and the few you do know).
well that was saturday.

i bummed about most of sunday in a failed attempt to recover.

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lately all i hear anyone talk about is prom. its not about me being
all negative and bitter as hell but i don't see the whole point in everything right now.
i don't wanna think about it at all but whatever. i got more important
things fucking up my life already. haha.

prom can wait.

---

and anyone who is still dateless to prom...
ask peterson poon.also known as the vocalist of served chill.
he's available and very willing to do what you want.
he's very gwapo and not at all against
anything that you will want to do to him. he wants you to want him
right now so take him while he is available because the demand
for gwapo lead vocalists who can scream as well as he does and
stage dive like that are in short demand nowadays.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 10:14:29 GMT

this has been like...the longest 3 day week.

i swear. gotta hate it. requirement after requirement
papers, homework, quizzes, bullshit, and more bull
yeah, i got it bad, but hey...i'm smiling. there's a load
of stuff thats making up for all of the crap.

yeah, lotsa people are still talkin smack about us,
and yeah it sucks. but hey, i got more smack than
all of ya. i'm a frikin cave man damnit! haha.
whats there not to love when your having all this
fun doin what you love, with kick ass friends
(and the crew...we need to come up with a name
for this amazing group of crazy guys...they deserve
a proper name na).

well. i've got a week left of crap.
i could use a nice long rest this weekend.
instead, i've got a debut to play, an audition
a play to watch, a video to edit, a paper to
write, note cards to finish, noli to finish
what else...i dunno na
pamatay na to. suicidal week. hell? close to it.
and after that, i dunno.
party time?

know what's funny? carlo's gonna be transformed
into don crisostomo ibarra for our next big show.
no shit people, hat, mustache and all.
(we are accepting donations for fake mustaches and
any bowler hats for a spanish-pinoy manadyer of ours).

gotta sleep. i haven't slept more than 6 hours since XP.
and hell...i wanna sleep. this is the problem of insomnia
gaddamet.

i want you to save me. inside i really do.
but this pursuit is overrated.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 14:15:31 GMT

it is 9:43 pm now on December 3.
and i write to you now, not as the SoRx
champion, not the number one, not even a
placer in the said competition. but here i am
ecstatic, excited, and beyond happy.

with everyone who said the competition was benta,
say what you want. we feel the judges decisions
weren't exactly on the dot. not everybody agreed with
what these guys decided, but thats them. AND HELL.
FUCK ALL OF THAT. FUCK ALL OF THAT BULL.

EVERY SINGLE MOTHERFUCKER WHO WAS THERE
THANKS FOR FUCKING SHOWING US SOME LOVE.
FOR EVERYONE WHO SUPPORTED THIS BAND...
THANK YOU GUYS SO DAMN MUCH
YOU MADE THE SHOW THAT FUCKING
MUCH BETTER. THANK YOU FOR MOSHING.
THANK YOU FOR SCREAMING.
AND PUTANG INA, THANK YOU FOR
CATCHING PETER WHEN HEY STAGE
DIVED!!! THANKS FOR THE LOVE.

there is a lot i want to say after our performance
at SoRx. First and foremost, everybody who's been there, everyone...
thank you. i am so fucking grateful that every single one of you came
out, moshed, sang, jumped, and did what you did. we thank you for
supporting this 5 dude band that is forever appreciative for what
you guys do for us.we really feel the love. Next, i wanna say that
hell, fuck it we didn't win.everyone who was moshing, everyone
who saw what we did; you knew that we had fun (and we hope you
did have fun too). i mean, we don't need the 10k to be happy. we
don't need to be first place to enjoy a show like that. hell, we went
out there and raised hell. WE HAD FUN. half the bands out there,
sure they played...but how many of them can say they had the time
of their lives out there? well i did. you guys made it possible...thank you.
Next, i wanna say that everyone who couldn't go, you know who you
guys are [ang dadami-dami ninyo amp!], thanks anyway. we still feel the
love. i for one hold no grudge if you didn't show. there will be other
shows, other opportunities, other times. see you guys at those future
shows. and for everyone who didn't believe in us...all 'em haters out
there, skeptics and non-believers...the ones who bashed us; for you
all i have to say, is thank you. you made me stronger, you pissed the
fuck off of me, and i take a fuck load of anger out on the fact you guys
don't believe i can do this. well here it is...that was my better. thats not
yet my best.

thanks everyone.
i cannot, and will not stop saying thank you for what you guys
did for us. much love back. you are the best. everyone.
thank you from the bottom of my heart. there are too many of you to name
but you know who you are.

OUT!

-rafa

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 00:05:07 GMT

right now its exactly 8:40 am on the morning of the 2nd of December.
this date has been branded in the back of my head for a good year.
yes...one whole fucking year of waiting for this day. one whole year.
it was about one year ago that i was denied my chance to play the
bandfest, and now i get that chance back. one year ago i was denied
the chance to fucking rock a show.

now i will.

tonight marks something special for me personally and with Serve Chilled.

Personally, tonight marks a night of destiny, justification and in a small way,
vengeance. i got something to prove tonight;something that few people get
a chance to prove. i have a little sense of destiny seizing to do because i
wanna win this thing really bad. no matter what anyone says, i wanna win
this with all my heart because i know that we have what it takes and depending
on the performance, i'll know if we deserve it.vengeance, a good deal of you
know why. it's a lot more than personal, and hell...tonight marks the end of it.

As a collective, this is also a special show. when i joined Serve, we really focused
on one real show, the bandfest. we've been waiting for this one for a good long year.
we're past the make or break stage. we've made some sort of a dent in someone's ears
and in some hearts. we've given a bunch of people some good shows, and we're gonna
give them something even more special. we got something to prove tonight and you know
it. we're ready as far as anything goes. we've got any and every excuse to do what we've
gone out and done ever since...ROCK THE FUCKING HOUSE. hell...we're ready for
this. i got a good feeling about tonight and hell. and boy is it good.

just you wait and see.
we've got it.
we live for this. we die for this.
and we gonna bring it tonight.

you'll see.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:00:11 GMT

this week has been...pretty damn sweet.

2 days of class, one day of ACP and not much to do.
how great is that? God loves me. He canceled classes for
meh!!! WOOT.

Think of this...on mah birthday, The Big Man suspends classes
the next day, making it an even longer weekend.
and gives me a great load of rest time before the bandfest.
good practice time too. This is like opportunity knocking and
hell, i'm answering.

SOUND made my birthday.
seriously, i had one of those gigs of my
life. THANK YOU!!!

imma gonna go sleep s' more.
cuz i need it. so badly.

---

too all those going to the bandfest
reminder: MOSH FOR YOUR LIFE.

and if you do mosh, don't hesitate to catch Peterson
if he attempts to stage dive.
Serve Chilled loves you!

Friday, November 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 13:53:58 GMT

long week, but still... i got a lot to
look forward to knowing that this
week was worth it.

uno.
band practices are paying off. this week
i've been doing a great deal of drumming
so imagine that...im actually drumming a lil
bit more than i am thinking about how the
hell the fucking french revolution killed off
a conservative average of 800 people a
month. i've been having a good deal of time
to myself...drumming, "resting".

dos.
on thanksgiving (for everyone who doesn't know
it was on thursday), i found out my cousins were
from the states are coming over for Christmas.
its nice because they were here last year, and its
REALLY, REALLY fun to have them around...
even if they are a lil older than meh...still fun.

tres.
i've gotten rid of a lot of tension through writing all
these palancas (and i hope none of you just threw
em away). a lot of the bad things in me are just
ebbing and flowing out. it feels good. i got a kick out
of it when mart told me that the P.S. portion of mine
looked like it came from a 5 year old. she really laughed.

quatro.
TUTTI's BACK! SA WAKAS
she was gone for a good long while and now she's back
yay!

cinco
bandfest is one week away.
im ready for this shit.

six.
its my birthday, which is on wed. to all of you who don't know
slash don't give a damn. hehe. imma gonna go to capone's
on a school night, drink, get fucked up...and end up goin to school
at some point after...i dont know how though. basta it looks to be
a good birthday for a change. wooot woot!

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this is not good night
this is good bye.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 10:31:34 GMT

im a Dazer na sa wakas.
yay. woot. yahoo. great.
no seriously, im happy na i did this and
that it was a good release, and in a way
something thats really gonna help me
become a better me.

and hell, i love my class.
much love to B181 and people behind the scenes.
world cup all over again.
---

post days...i have learned many things.
the one thing i shall blog about is that
being super emo (hence the nickname: supremo)
isn't good for you.

you need to learn how to be shallow.
yes, in the best sense of the word.
i need to start seeing the little happy things
everyday...na that little small thing that can
make me smile, and that might not really
my day...but it made me smile.
it is a really plain and simple fact that, yeah
i take things to deep sometimes and never
get to scrape the surface and it sucks that i
never get to see these little things that ought
to make me smile.

thanks again to jaime
for his kickass palanca and dentyne.
...and everyone who wrote too. thanks.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 11:57:20 GMT

hey. last entry before days.

okay. after days...i have a good feeling im not gonna
be the same motherfucker i am right now.
i have a feeling that well maybe this may just be that
waking up i need so badly. maybe i might just
be able to realize what the fuck is wrong with me.
maybe lang.

but hey...days is days. 3 days with my class.
with the people. with God.
kaya ko to.

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i'm just gonna go now.
got a coin to shine
affairs to sort out.
gotta pack.
i'm done.
out.

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last call out for everyone who wants
a damn ticket to the bandfest...
make up your minds because im having
a hard time keeping tabs on ALL OF YOU.
dami dami ninyo eh. so please, its only 150
its not like you can't produce 150 on the spot

to everyone outside xavier who wants,
TELL ME ASAP so that i can get to you.
special people get discount.
very special people might get a free ticket from me.
extra special people who don't want to go are screwed.

okay?

we appreciate all the support guys!
if you buy tix from us, it means a lot.
and if you don't...well ibang usapan na yan.
but for those who buy from others, yet still go to see us...
thanks pa rin
(maliban kay kyle teng who supports blind rose)